I took my second capsule this morning with some water and black coffee.
I didn’t notice anything in particular in terms of my mood.
I attempted to record a song I was working on and ended up hitting a wall. I recorded several takes but ultimately didn’t feel like I captured the song the way I wanted.
Later on, I went to visit my parents.
I’m often reminded of a quote from Ram Das (I’m paraphrasing): “If you think you’re enlightened, go spend a week with your parents.” It’s kinda true.
Today, however, was a little different. The anxiety that I sometimes (usually) experience around my parents was lessened. And speaking with them, I was calmer and felt freer to express myself.
Usually, I’d be antsy and want to switch gears, either moving to a different room or finding some activity to focus on, but, for a change, I spent most of the day just talking with my parents.
I was in less of a rush; I was able to just enjoy the time.
There were a couple of short-lived moments where I felt a little frustration, brought about by a comment from Mom playing the role of Mother in the kitchen.
And my mind did feel anxious at times talking to my Dad but all in all, I was relatively free from a higher degree of stress, restlessness, and agitation.
I wonder how long the microdose lasts? Does it wear off or do its effects linger?
The bus home was jammed and my anxiousness around people, well, I was less aware of it.
When I got home, I did some patterned breathing:
- Breath into the belly for 4 counts
- Hold for 7
- Exhale for 8
After about 10 minutes of this, I felt much more at ease.
I then did a half-dozen rounds of Wim Hof and tapped into some deep feeling in my hips and sacrum. Bringing my conscious presence to this area is a gift and I felt my awareness of this area deepen.
The journey continues…